11th-14th

...Once again I haven't been up beat with posting day to day. But that's quite crazy, so I think I'll stick with doing it every other day, it works best.

But on with my mid week days. Tuesday was ehhh, typical school day; felt like it should've just been friday already. But I stayed after at school for a hour to work on my stations for my autos class, I need to catch up; I haven't been getting it, ha.

But I got my hair cut... I forget what day exactly, but I know for sure it was a Saturday; most likely the most recent one, which was the... 8th? Whateve. I didn't get a real different cut, just a trim. Still planning to grow out my hair real long to cut it all off for the cancer cause.

Wednesday, again I stayed after at school. But this time was too get my face painted like a cat by my friend, because she's in the make-up crew for the drama club, they put on plays and so on. Which you can guess; they'll be putting on Cats the famous play. It was a lot of fun, I wish I could do that kind of high school things more often. But After we (my bro and I) left school; we went to youth group (I still had my face painted lol), that was same old same old, just the usual.

Thursday, was so slow, nothing exciting at all. But at home I start digging into 'my' car to see what was up; as to why it hasn't been able to start without having to manualy jump it. And come to find out, the battery cords were loose; so the battery wasn't getting charged while the car runs as it's supposed to. So we (my Dad and I) fixed that up. I was real happy that was a quick fix, glory!

And todayyy... Wow to think it's more of a blurr than the last couple days...
Um well I stayed after school today as well to work on some more lab stations in autos. I machined a *disc (rotor), which is cutting it a new nicer serface. And I took off a brake disc (rotor), which involves taking it apart and putting it back together. Pretty sweet, I can't wait 'til I get to do these things on my own car.

Well, that excludes all that has happened. I'll make sure and try to make my life a little more eventful and exciting, just another one of those things I gotta work on. Ha.

7th-10th

I haven't written for so long that each day that passed is all mashed together.
I can't really say exactly what happened each individual day.
Though I can say, nothing life changing. So in my opinion none of it is worth mentioning.

Days are boring. I'm so bored of this nothingness. I want something to happen, but I'm still such a frail weakling that I'm not actully willing to want ANYTHING to happen. I'm scared of being hurt, or being involved in situations I can't control or don't have a solution to.
I want something to change, but I'm to pathetic to actually do something about it. I'm not willing or wanting it enough to accept anything as possible entertainment.

Sometime I really hate myself, I really am a horribly foolish person. That only deserves to be shown the real world and real work, and to stop feeling so sorry for myself.

And calling myself stupid, foolish and patheitc only shows I'm all the more self certered. To be able to have time and write "poor me" things such as this, I really am a piece of work.
I always speak of "Oh I want to do this, I want to that" but never end up doing it and end up cryin' about it and having more freaking "pity me" time.

I suck, I honestly and seriously SUCK. But you know what saying I suck or what ever else I can call myself isn't helping so what the hell should I do. Ok so I admit that I am in the wrong, now what? It isn't that easy just to admit the wrong and just change just like that. I need to work at it, but I can't get myself to work...
Simply and utterly pathetic.
I really need some super strict person by my side 24/7; kicking me into shape.
Ha one can dream. But you know what, who says I can't try. Hahaha.

5th-6th

And for another double day-er thing.

Yesterday went as usual, boring and uneventful.

Today I'm not going to school. My brother had an ortho appointment and I would of had to get drop off at school earlier than usual and I didn't want to deal with staying that much longer at that horrid place. Ha.

But since I'm not going to go to school, what should I do? That is what I am faced with today. The decision of what to do with myself for yet another day... I don't want it just to be like usual, I want more.

I want to read a book and love it. I want to make something and become more skilled. I want to search something and end up researching. I want to work out and feel better about myself inside and out.
I just want to want to do something, stuff like that...

Grrr. Why must I be so lazy and unmotivated. Like it says in the bible, "how long wilt thou sleep thou sluggard" I am the sluggard.

3rd-4th

So looks like I feel asleep to early yesterday to make my everyday post. But it's
A-okay, I can just do a double day report for today.

Well yesterday not much happened, I went to see a movie with my sister and her Boyfriend. It was called the Black Swan... It wasn't my kind of movie. I was basically closing my eyes curled up in a ball for half the movie, there were things I didn't want to see... Ever.
But I can't say it was completely bad, it had a thing about that was just artistic and different for sure.

Other than the movie and school, the day itself was just; "eh".

Now moving on to today, I don't think I will start writing about it right now, I'm gonna head to school and than I will continue this. 'Til than, peace.




*Ten Hours Later...*



So my 4th day went by, and I have nothing I feel the need to report.
I'm tired, so very tired, and I don't see the importence of writing out a long boring report on just how boring and meaningless my day actually was. So I'll say this, I left for school, I got to school, I wanted to leave school, I got out of school, and I got home. That is it, you can add whatever smaller details you see fit.
'Til tomorrow, goodnight.

2nd

So it's only and already the second day... Borringgg.
I am so not looking forward to tomorrow. School starts up again... That is never going to be considered a good and joyious thing to me, never in a hundred years.

Well it's only 12pm so not much has happened since 8am when I got up, I've just been killing my brain on the computer.

Anyhow I think I'll just ramble 'til I'm decently content.

Whats been on my mind recently isn't really anything real different, but my thoughts have been getting louder. Gah, it's like their yelling at me.
Emotions have been the same also, I have't been paying much attention to 'em too.
I usually try to take close care to my mental well being, making sure I really understand myself, why I do certain things; why I feel centain ways. Just to get to the truth of the matter, what the true cause of everything is.

But, I haven't been doing it as of late. It sucks. Makes you feel like crap. Like after working out for a long time, you stop and start being lazy, it makes you feel nasty, sick, and just overall not great.

Well that's my mantal drama as of nowadays. I've just been a hollow, lazy, and total idiot. I can't wait to see what'll happen or what change will come to be within a week, month, and the entire year! Ooo Exciting.

The New Year's First

So I decided to try and stand by what I said I was going to do, which is writing something everyday for the next year for my New Year Resolution.

Well to begin this.... thing.
I guess I should write something about today, the first day of the new year.

Lets see... I woke up at 8am, drank coffee and sat around til I got motivated enough to get my butt out side to let the chickens out in their run for the day.
Then after I was bugged enough by my parents, I washed the eggs that were waiting for me in the sink, which went on to me going with my parents and youngest brother to meijer... Which seemed to take a life time 'cuz I was so dang hungry!
Well soon after that we got home, made pizza, so it was all good.

Thheeeennnn my sister and her husband come over; after just recently getting home from their vacation in Florida. Whish was awesome 'cuz they brought me back something, it was ssweeet~~

Anyhow... After we all hung out for a bit just chillin' (though I went in my room to play the computer after an hour or so). And by around the time before I went up to my room I put the chickens in, and yeah nothing much happened after that.

So I'd say the world average pretty much sums up the description of my first day of this new year. I just hope something will be, different at some point.